Friday, March 25, 2011

Haishh. 1E2 seems to be falling apart.

Seeing things like this, I cant help but think back of those things that happened in 2009. Seriously, 2009 make me suffer like hell. I've to live in fear every single day. Cry most of the time. I've to be wary of everyone that comes close to me for the fear of the same things happening again and again. No matter how many times I told myself to not to trust that person again, I never fail to get cheated. And yeah, I get betrayed again and again. I got bullied, and many more. At that time, i've really lost trust with everyone . I feel that there's there's no such thing as "trust" in this world. I feel that everythings fake. I dreaded to wake up every day. I dreaded to go to school. I dont have a true friend. I wasnt greedy. All I needed was a friend that'll be by my side. That's all. I became numb to everything. And worst of all, I just smiled. I keep smiling. I tried to covered everything by just smiling, and there I was, smiling all the way. I acted as if everything was what I wanted, everything's on the right path.

Think back now, i've seriously regretted making the desicions i've made. But well, it's history alr:) It's the experience that i've made that's important. I've learnt lots of things. And 2009 is just another climax in my life.:) I learnt how to appreciate things,